Trapped in a sea of tangled lies
With sad lost thought and tear-stained eyes
Fear that pulls me far off my path
Waiting for the next season of wrath
 
“It’s all in your head” they say so clear
Yet self-doubt crawls back year after year
Will nothing shush the inner noise so strong?
Where and when will I ever belong?
 
A voice to speak with words of light
To finally sleep all through the night
Finding God’s grace has anchored me through
More adverse pain than I knew what to do
 
Insomniac behaviour kept me from myself
All while knowing what was good for my health
The should’s and would’s that pierce my brain
Create such floods of uncertain rain
 
When the sun shines bright I do as well
How hard is this episode? It’s hard to tell
As a mother, friend, daughter and wife
Mental health challenges make up my life
 
Recently ADHD hit my diagnosis chart
At least now I have somewhere to start
I owe no explanation for my lack and shame
Grateful that others can share in this game
 
Surrounded by people who seriously care
Who know what I need and offer to share
Their time, talk, smile and empathy ear
These are the moments I hold most dear
 
Time management can be confusingly crazy
Don’t confuse scattered actions as lazy
Working harder than most for the simplest task
Humour and patience is what most I ask
 
Daily duties and challenges can escalate fast
Pour on guilt from mistakes of the past
Certain memories take up precious mental space
Positivity can reign, but it’s something I must chase
 
Sure I forget things and rapidly crash
However, inadequacies are no reason to bash
Three decades of trying, falling and failing
Turns out I’m not climbing, instead I’m sailing
 
If you ask a fish to climb a tree, what occurs?
She likely cannot and is shattered by nerves
Offer that fish water with others to swim near
She flourishes learning to say goodbye to fear
 
Creatively she pursues her goals and dreams
Instead of tree houses she light up streams
Nobody is perfect it’s evidently true
I’m happy to share my story here, with you.
 
Perhaps another person in your life
Feels lost and drowning in mental strife
Know that more than ever they need an ear
Hearing “No matter what, I am here”